From the album The Juggler

Lyrics

I don’t have the fire
I can’t find the spark
I’m sitting here fretting
Alone in the dark
But I don’t want you to know

My mind’s up and left me
I can’t see the light
I want to give up
on this terrible fight
But I don’t want you to know

So I’ll smile
Just a while long than I’m supposed to
I’ll show all the signs
that my life is nothing but fine

It’s well after midnight
A drink in my hand
I’m feeling this rock in my head
Turn to sand
But I don’t want you to know

The shame overcomes me
I can’t shake it off
I know that these thoughts
that I’m having are wrong
But I don’t want you to know

So I’ll smile
Just a while long than I’m supposed to
I’ll show all the signs
that my life is nothing but fine

Lock it down
Seal it up tight
It’s ok
Yes it’s alright

The sun hurts my eyes
Cause I’m still here in bed
Heavy and tired
With panic and dread
No I don’t want you to know

I’ll dress up this Sunday
I’ll wash the new car
It’s better to look nice
If I get that far
No I don’t want you to know

So I’ll smile
Just a while long than I’m supposed to
I’ll show all the signs
that my life is nothing but fine