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  1. Not This Time

From the album Flanagan's Field

Lyrics

I lie awake at night, I can't sleep
The shadows whisper on the walls
and I keep wondering
what they say
Can they see how I hide each day?
Yes, it's true
I think I know what to do
I know I can't be with you
You're going to ask me to stay
but I can't live this way

(Chorus)
I'm not gonna look back this time
I'm not gonna look back this time
I'm not gonna get seduced by your lies
I'm not gonna feel reduced in my mind
I'm not gonna look back this time

I'm tired of hearing that I'm so dumb
I'm tired of hearing that you want some
There's just a tiny little wisp
of a voice
that tells me that I've got a choice
but that sound is so small
like it's not there at all
I'm so accustomed to his beck and call
Oh, I've got to trust myself
even if he cries for my help

Chorus

Yeah, it's easier to stay the course I know
But everything tells me that I've got to go

The morning light is sparkling now
and even though I don't know how
to work it out inside of my head
I'm gonna get out of this bed
and I'm gonna get dressed
and I'm gonna pack my things
I'm gonna make a plan
and I might even sing outloud
just to feel what it feels like to do that
and then I'm gonna walk out
and I know that

Chorus